hate

Life is…

Sometimes I wonder: what am I?
I look at the stars and feel very small;
just a tiny consciousness.
But if I were as tall as a planet,
I would still be short in comparison to the universe.

I see a person twice my size
and I feel weak and fragile.
But if I were strong and powerful,
I would still not be invincible.

I see a painting by the hand of a genius,
and I feel inexperienced and ignorant.
But if I were the greatest artist alive,
it would not make me love what I do any more or less.

I see blood, running from the wound of another,
and I feel a chilling fear from deep within.
But if I walked this earth with bravery,
it would not make things less dangerous.

I see a baby, innocent and naive,
and I feel cynical and jaded.
But if I saw through untainted eyes all my life,
it would not make the world a better place.

I see a raindrop, tear of the sky,
and I feel ugly and unsightly.
But if I were as beautiful as rain,
it would not make me crystal clear inside.

There are children with cancer,
mothers who lose their babies,
people who are worse off than dead.

I wonder if I am just lucky or if the world was cruel.
But even if the world was kind or if I were dying, too,
there would still be suffering.

I weep all night, I get nightmares,
I lose myself thinking of such things.
But even if I could right every wrong,
if I could run faster
or jump higher
or be stronger,
it would not make me better or happier.

With what I have, I’ll do what I like
and like what I do.
Life is good.

Life

-Mkalyan

Sleep .:twisted story:.

ME: I wanna sleep….But I can’t….there’s a computer in the room….and people online…..and just cant.
Sleep please love me? I want you to…but if you don’t then I can never find out how to get to you. So please can you just accept me for who I am, and love me?
I want you to be able to take me away and distract me, and only be able to focus on you…. But you’re not making this easy.
So sleep can you come back to me? And love me like you did before in the past?

SLEEP: No, can’t you understand I don’t love you. And never will. Frankly you bore me now, and I want nothing to do with you. So now get away from me, because I will always be above you and you far beneath me so why should I even try to love someone as pitiful as you?

ME: B-But??

SLEEP: Didn’t I tell you I would never love you, I will never give you the chance to be with me. You are unattractive and stupid! And should always suffer from insomnia! You will never deserve me.

ME: But, I still want to try. I want to try to reach a level closer to you, just so I can be closer to you. I will change myself for you and only you…So please can you just wait for me?

SLEEP: Die. I hope you just die. I’ll never wait for you. You’ll never reach my level and never will get closer to me. YOU.ARE.A.DISGUSTING.BEING. Drop dead.

ME:…. OK…I’ll do as you wish, and stop trying. But I’ll always be here if you ever want to take me back.

SLEEP: Pfft. Hearing that from you that’s a complete insult.

ME: I’ll still wait even if you hate me.

SLEEP: You may wait all you want but nothing will happen for you.

Sleep_by_Neumorin

Cursed Heart

I carved an X into my heart
I wished to never fall in love again.
Over and over, I wished it.
I cursed myself
Now I fear I’ve lost my heart.
I don’t want to fall out of love.
What’s happening to me?
What have I done?
Bleeding_Heart

-Mkalyan