Day 1 Disneyland Adventure, Tokyo

Being alone

Everyone feels alone at some point in their life, whether they want to admit it or not. It feels hollow but painful. The feeling comes from the same place as happiness and sadness, but why does being alone feel this way?


It’s because the pain from being sad makes itself present, and the happiness that you had felt re-emerges from the slumber it was in. You can be the happiest person you know and feel completely alone…or you can be the saddest and be alone, either way, from happiness to sadness, everyone feels that dark, aching pain that they can’t explain. “Why does it hurt? Why does it feel like that? Why do I feel this way?” are questions you ask yourself when you feel the deep feeling in your chest.

When you are alone, you think of your mistakes, and you see them being worse than they were; and you feel worse than you did the first time. I know that. I have relived my past mistakes over and over and I regretted every moment. But I can’t change it. I have to live with the facts that I was angry, depressed, short-tempered and alone. People tried to reach out to me, but I ended up pushing them away, at least I think I did…

But this isn’t about me, it’s about all of the people who feel alone and distanced from the world.

But, those people. You, please, I know the feeling will make you cry, I know you will feel yourself crumbling slowly, but don’t hurt yourself for it. People will come to help you. That one person who asks how you are that one day, he/she probably knows your pain and wants to help you. You are never alone. Teachers, your parents, whether they seem to never care or not, your classmates, they care. I have felt like I had friends ever since I went into high school. And I could never ask for better friends. I will be your friend. I want to help people who feel the same pain as I have had to for the 17 years of being alive.

So, please. If you feel this feeling of being completely alone, and you don’t know where to go, just know that being alone may be a safe place, but it also can be the most painful one of all.

Life’s Truths

It is in the darkest times in your life that you discover the truth.

About you and the people that inhabit the world you live in.
You learn about life long friends that seem to ignore your pain.
You find that a casual acquaintance is the first to peek beneath the false mask of happiness.

But it’s not just you.
You open your eyes
When you glance around,
you notice more
You ask questions

You find that the seemingly perfect straight A student has a questionable past,
The girl who always seemed so confident in herself admitted to having bulimia
The talented artist you admire cuts them-self

You find that you’re not alone…
Everyone is a little messed up
Everyone has secrets.

It is in the darkest days that you listen, you learn.
People may not see you’re pain
But you see theirs

The question is…What do you do?




I’m still working out the kinks but this is the general idea…
I would like some feedback about this piece of literature


Listen to Rain

Sitting outside
Sitting inside
It’s soothing
How it gently taps our windows
Admired by some
But hated by others

It looks as it fell from heaven
Fallen to the ground
Cooling down our world
Perfect little drops

Doesn’t it feel good when it softly lands on your faces?

If you listen carefully
You can hear it sing you a soft lullaby
Even though it can come as a terrible storm
Listen to it’s soothing weeps
Listen to it’s soothing cries
Listen to it’s soothing words

Can you feel why its here?
Can you see why it’s here?
Have you ever seen people dance in it or play?
They are some how gifted

Listen to it
Try to pick up what it tells
You may need it in the future




Rain – A poem for INDIES IN ACTION- for a charity anthology for the tornado victims in Oklahoma.


I sit

And watch

As the rain drops 

fall in front of me,

at my sides,

and even behind me.

As I watch them through hazy eyes and my own dripping water,

I wonder.

I sit and wonder.

Do rain drops

Get lonely


With all those other rain drops with them..

Do they feel like me?

To feel alone.

Is a pain I would wish on no one else.

A wish 

I wish was granted to me


To bear everyone’s pain.

To give them relief,

From the burning heat.

To show them to the water,

To let them quench their thirst.

But to make mine even worse.

I wish I could just take everyone’s pain

Bottle it up inside me

And let others

Be happy.

And maybe

If I died

If I did it myself, or someone else did it

I can take the pain with me

and destroy it.


The Ultimate Gift… of Life

Somewhere in life we think that our inheritance is going to be the gift of money and lots of it. Well are we in for a big surprise.

Let me take you on an improbable journey of discovery, having to answer the ultimate question: “What is the relationship between wealth and happiness?”


Based on the best-selling book “The Ultimate Gift” by Jim Stovall, Jason Stevens had a very simple relationship with his impossibly wealthy Grandfather, Howard “Red” Stevens. He hated him. No heart-to-heart talks, no warm fuzziness  just cold hard cash. So Jason figured that when Red died, that his Grandfather would leave him money which will allow him to continue living in the lifestyle to which his used to and accustomed to. But Red had another plan for Jason to experience a crash course on life. He gave him twelve tasks, which was called “gifts,” challenging Jason in an improbable way, the accumulation of which would change him forever.

Life is simply not just about money, living a wealthy and organised lifestyle. To have the ultimate gift of life, you need to earn it. By earning it, you have to experience a crash course on life and receive a serious of gifts. “Gifts” of work, money, friends, learning, problems, family, laughter, dreams, giving, gratitude, a day and love – to which will challenge you to a journey of discoveries.

The person who might have hurt you the most in life – might give you the ultimate gift of life. A serious of gifts might come along your way in order to pursue the ultimate gift.

* Gift of work – Finish a job to be done. Work hard and you can do anything.

* Gift of money – Spend it on someone who might have financial problems and by putting yourself in their shoes. To find out that your friend is diagnosed with cancer to give a helping hand on his/her bills.

* Gift of friendship – I need a friend is easy to say, but what is the real meaning behind friendship? You can have a friend of any age and you might meet a friend that can change your view of life entirely.

* Gift of Learning – Do you truly know how to learn? I think that there is so much more to discover and learn.

* Gift of Problems – You don’t start living until you haven’t lost everything. You have to encounter problems and learn from them in order to realise how much you actually have.

* Gift of family – Share your love with family. Be supportive and listen to what they have to say, you might just found the gift of a happy family.

* Gift of laughter – It is great to laugh and the best medicine ever. Laughter needs no words.

* Gift of dreams – You need to be free to dream. You need to come up with a dream and act on it. Even if you don’t have your own dream yet, you can help to fulfil others’ dreams.

* Gift of giving – If you give, you will receive back.

* Gift of gratitude – A ‘thank you’ will bounce back to you.

* Gift of a day – Spend a day in your life with someone you love and fulfil their dreams and wishes. They might just have ‘a day’ to live.

* Gift of love – After this journey of discoveries, you might found the gift of love for the person who you hated the most and who hurt you the most in life.

Someone Special

I wanted to say something special to you.But I wasn’t sure quite what to write.Maybe something serious and thoughtful or maybe something bubbly and light

I see you in every star
deep inside me
and yet so far

I feel you in every
breathe of wind
you’re my everything

without your words
I get so lost
because you help me
the most

just by being there
somewhere, anywhere

there is no other you
someone else just won’t do

Because of this and more,
You’re Someone Special In My Life

First Love!

Such a fragile thing
Wraps you around with its warmth
A wonderful feeling
Shared by two
Such a fragile thing
It starts to crack
It fades away
Pain is felt
Death is caused
Such a fragile thing

Gonna start my 6th story-” My first love” a pure romantic one this time 😀